Just reading this title made me chuckle a little. I find I don’t laugh outloud like I did years ago, things just aren’t all that funny that often. However, several years ago, a coworker told me that I sounded like Betty Rubble from the Flinstones, and at first I denied it and thought it silly. But after becoming aware of this similarity, I began to hear it myself and I did have a similar laugh. Not sure I still have that in me, but it was funny at the time.
I was never one to really look very far into the future. So, I am not huge planner. But I do look forward to a better year at work, or perhaps it’s just time for another job search. However, what I look forward to the most is having a concrete writing plan, something I can stick with and be pleased with at the end of the year. Can’t say I’m off to a great start but we are only a few days into the year, no point being negative yet. I have the same pitfalls that I have had for years, procrastination, no time, and the list goes on. For some reason, this year feels different to me and I am confident that this year will be a fantastic writing year!
I had very strong feelings about turning 50 a few weeks ago. There were so many emotions that I had been carrying through the years that I had such mixed feelings. Some days I was horrified that I could possibly be this old. That part is still true. Other days I was totally thrilled because there were many times I didn’t think I would make it this far. But for the most part I am just disappointed in myself for how my life has turned out so far, for the things I have not accomplished and for the things I have missed out on. I had hopes and dreams that I thought would have been realized by now and I suppose all this means is that they will be delayed a little bit longer. I certainly am not going to give up on anything at this point, the best time of my life is here and I hope to embrace it with open arms.
Just when I felt like i had a little bit of energy and was working on some cleaning projects, guess what? I was getting out of my car and I had such excruciating pain in my back that I couldn’t move. I got stuck and was frozen. I thought it would disappear in a minute but that didn’t seem to be the case. Thank God Ronnie was with me to help me walk and get back into the car. This is the first time this has happened in a very long time. I can somehow deal with my daily pain, but this is a huge thorn in my side that I can’t handle right now. I now have to lay down and try not to make any quick movements at all. I just hope that I will be able to walk by tomorrow. So much for my big plans this weekend, I had such high hopes, some energy and lots of enthusiasm. Now it’s all gone down the drain in one instant.